"My amazing family"

At times I think the Dr.s are crazy and I am NOT as bad as they tell me I am but then again I have days like Sat when I couldn't even vaccum my bedroom without stopping to rest I realize how my lungs have declined. 
I don't know what I would do without my amazing family!  Thank you Michael, Mckaley, Abby and Luke for always standing by me and helping me when the road gets too hard.  I love you with all my heart! 

"God has a plan"

When I started my blog I had decided that I wouldn't use it as a poor pitiful me blog feeling sorry for myself.   After having a conversation with a awesome lady, a LAM sister that inspires me so much Melanie Putman I have decided that defeats the whole purpose of my blog.  She explained to me that I needed to express my feelings and how I was feeling physically with this stinking lung disease in order to help other ladies.  Well here goes :)....  The last couple days the weather has been in the 90's and has been EXTREMELY hard on me! Some days are good and other days I dread taking a bath and washing my hair because it wears me out so bad.  Therefore I try to pace myself and on those good days I take complete advantage of them and on the bad I am TRYING to allow myself NOT to feel guilty and to just rest.  I try so hard to be positive and appreciate everything that God has blessed me with.  I have to confess sometimes I can't help but get so discouraged.  The last couple days I have had no energy, have had to wear my oxygen most of the time and my chest is sore from trying to breath so much.  Most people don't even notice they are breathing but it is in my every thought.  I know there are so many people that are in a lot worse shape then I am.  I look forward to one day after I get a new set of lungs (wings) being able to go all day and do EVERYTHING my girls and husband want to do without getting wore out and making myself sick.  I think about the days I was able to do this.  I worked full time then and it always crosses my mind that now since I am at home with my girls maybe just maybe that was Gods way of slowing me down and allowing me to realize WHAT TRULY MATTERS IN LIFE.  I know regardless of how frustrated I am God has a plan.
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).  I believe this with all my heart even on the days I am discouraged <3!